A transgender individual identified as Robin/Robert Westman reportedly admitted in handwritten journals that he was “tired of being trans” and expressed regret over his decision to transition, according to statements shared online before a fatal shooting at a Minneapolis church.
Westman’s writings, partially translated from a coded mix of Russian Cyrillic script and English, included remarks such as, “I am tired of being trans, I wish I never brain-washed myself.” He also noted that he kept his long hair “as it is my last shred of being trans” but planned to cut it on the day of an attack. The journals referenced violent fantasies, including desires to harm children and glorified the 2012 Sandy Hook massacre.
Westman, who had legally changed his name from Robert to Robin in 2020, carried out a shooting at Annunciation Catholic Church and School in Minneapolis on Wednesday morning, killing two children and wounding 17 others before taking his own life. His videos posted online hours prior contained phrases like “kill Donald Trump” and “for the children” scrawled on gun magazines.
A suicide note attributed to Westman expressed remorse for his actions, apologizing to family and friends while detailing his struggles with depression and a perceived inability to cope with societal pressures. The document also included personal messages to relatives, urging them to move past the tragedy.
The contents of the journals and note were disclosed by an anonymous source, with no official confirmation provided by authorities. The case has sparked widespread discussion about mental health, gender identity, and the motivations behind the attack.